Ugh. Today is so rough. I feel like I am completely alone on this journey of mine, which, in and of itself sounds ridiculous. Of course I'm alone. I always have been. But, part of the fairytale, once you've found "the one", is thinking that HE is always with you even if you are separated by geography and time.
I need a kind word, a sweet email, a kiss, a hug and and an "I love you" today....but asking for it also seems ridiculous. Maybe HE is thinking fondly of me...or maybe HE is just thinking about how HE will ever be able to tell me that HE's made plans to go fuck her again.
Give up? Give in? Let go? Be alright? There are too many questions and not enough answers. Today is only Tuesday.
Sorry KT. I know it's painful to have these thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI hope you find peace soon.