The Bigger Things in Life

If I told my girlfriends of my currently discovered situation with him, they would all tell me to leave. They would tell me that I deserve better and that I don't have to put up with that shit. They would give me more advice than I bargained for and the whole time I'd be trying to defend him. I do defend him...because, for the most part, I believe the same things that HE believes.

People cheat. They just do. Sometimes it's from anger, sometimes it's from lust, and sometimes it's because the desire for something different is just who that person is. When I think of the bigger things in life, this isn't the worst thing that I could experience.

When I first met him, I dreamed that HE had many many women.....everywhere I turned there was one. I believe in dreams. I believe that HE and I were together in another life. I believe that HE is THE ONE. Yes, I do. Flaws and all. Stubbornness and insensitivity and all the things I wish were different.

The bigger things: HE loves me. HE wants me and not the others. HE has allowed me into his life, even the responsible parts (I know where HE lives! Yes that is something in his world.). HE treats me very well. HE gives me his best. We share almost everything. We laugh together. We have amazing sex, all the time. We experience a whole lot together.

In many ways, our relationship is almost perfect. If we could just get through this part and find a way to trust and be completely honest there would be nothing to force a wedge between us. I guess I have some work to do with me!

I can't wait to have more of the bigger things in life, with him.