Thinking about the negative outcome our date had last night, I can't help but think to myself, "He's just not that into you." I actually fell asleep with my arms around him and the last words I said were, "I really hate you sometimes."
How can I get past the pain of knowing HE fucks other women?
How can I let it go?
How is HE able to be happy about the pain HE has caused and the damage HE has done for our wonderful relationship?
Why does HE choose not to talk about it with me?
Will HE be honest with me in the future or is HE just a liar that is pleased with the way HE conducts his life?
Why can't I find beauty in his actions even if they don't present themselves in the way I understand them?
What's gonna happen tonight?
When will the cycle turn upward toward the good, positive, romantic, fun?
I feel really bad about everything at this moment. Ugh.....
Sorry you feel so unhappy.
ReplyDeleteI don't believe someone else can define your happiness. You may never be able to make yourself accept his need to be sexual with others, and this is giving you a lot of pain and self-doubt.
You must still enjoy much more in the relationship than you don't because you're still in it.
No answers from me, but I wish you peace.