It's funny how the world works. I have been contemplating my finances for a while. I won't say that the economy has "been rough" on me, but I have noticed that money seems to be spread thin these days. As I ponder and strategize, I have been finding money on the ground. Seriously, it's as if everywhere I look, there is change on the ground...pennies, dimes, quarters..... I haven't added up my found fortune but it has happened enough that it's caused me to think further.
Conversely, money has been falling from my wallet as well. Pennies only, interestingly enough. I look to see if my change section is zipped; it is, so I wonder if I just throw the change in without looking to see if it's in it's correct department. I always bend down, pick it up, then place it in the zipped section. Practice. Consciousness towards my money.
Change is creating...change. Consciousness towards any issue will bring it to light, causing actions that, hopefully, create a more positive outcome than the one previously practiced. In this case, consciousness towards money issues will create a more positive way to handle it.
Drop it, as in the case of late, versus throw it away, as in unplanned and frivolous purchases, are equal. Keep the money in it's planned spot, as in what I've been practicing with my pennies, versus keeping the money in the bank (the planned spot), are also equal.
When I was in college, I used to "lose money". The cash I'd walk out of the restaurant with was later found in a pocket, or an overnight bag. $80, $200 was once found. Money I didn't even miss. Ahhh, those were the days. Well, I think I will survey my luggage and packed away clothing. Maybe I'll get lucky!
Monday, November 29, 2010
Training
"Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose." Yoda
Breaking this sentence down can lead to much introspection. From the training, to the letting go to discovering what I fear to lose and why, it is a message filled with wisdom. The wrinkly, little sci/fi character from Star Wars shared this Buddahism with Annikin Skywalker when he noticed that the future Darth Vader was torn between the Dark Side and the light side.
"Fear is the path to the Dark Side. Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering." Also a Yoda quote.
I have been living on the Dark Side, it would seem. I am angry. I do hate. I am suffering. So, training myself to let go of all I fear to lose is the answer, according to the little man. How does one go about this training?
1. Practice, everyday, letting go of something I have no control over.
2. Accept what I am given as what I need.
3. Accept that what I want may not be what I need.
4. Dismiss others' shortcomings as a mechanism to make me feel bad.
5. Love myself, above all others.
6. Practice being more selfish, but for the bettering of myself, not for evil.
7. Show love, compassion and friendship, even if it is not shown to me.
Practice: This means discipline of which I suck at! Practice will be difficult for me but doable. In order to achieve, I must practice discipline.
Accept: This means for better or worse, show love and compassion even if the action or expression seems as if it is against me. This also means giving up my own feelings in order to show the other person my acceptance.
Dismiss: This one is easy for me although I have been dismissing the wrong things. I must dismiss the actions of others even if they make me feel like I'm dying inside. Other people's issues don't have anything to do with me. They don't have anything to do with my happiness, my success, my love, my life. Dismissing things I don't approve of will only leave space for me to concentrate on myself and my life.
Love myself and being more selfish: This is also not very easy for me. I have control over myself, my happiness, my success, my future. Take it girl! Take what you want and make it all happen for yourself. You don't need anyone. You don't need validation from anyone. You are your best means of support.
Training has begun. "Always in motion is the future." Yoda
Breaking this sentence down can lead to much introspection. From the training, to the letting go to discovering what I fear to lose and why, it is a message filled with wisdom. The wrinkly, little sci/fi character from Star Wars shared this Buddahism with Annikin Skywalker when he noticed that the future Darth Vader was torn between the Dark Side and the light side.
"Fear is the path to the Dark Side. Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering." Also a Yoda quote.
I have been living on the Dark Side, it would seem. I am angry. I do hate. I am suffering. So, training myself to let go of all I fear to lose is the answer, according to the little man. How does one go about this training?
1. Practice, everyday, letting go of something I have no control over.
2. Accept what I am given as what I need.
3. Accept that what I want may not be what I need.
4. Dismiss others' shortcomings as a mechanism to make me feel bad.
5. Love myself, above all others.
6. Practice being more selfish, but for the bettering of myself, not for evil.
7. Show love, compassion and friendship, even if it is not shown to me.
Practice: This means discipline of which I suck at! Practice will be difficult for me but doable. In order to achieve, I must practice discipline.
Accept: This means for better or worse, show love and compassion even if the action or expression seems as if it is against me. This also means giving up my own feelings in order to show the other person my acceptance.
Dismiss: This one is easy for me although I have been dismissing the wrong things. I must dismiss the actions of others even if they make me feel like I'm dying inside. Other people's issues don't have anything to do with me. They don't have anything to do with my happiness, my success, my love, my life. Dismissing things I don't approve of will only leave space for me to concentrate on myself and my life.
Love myself and being more selfish: This is also not very easy for me. I have control over myself, my happiness, my success, my future. Take it girl! Take what you want and make it all happen for yourself. You don't need anyone. You don't need validation from anyone. You are your best means of support.
Training has begun. "Always in motion is the future." Yoda
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Learning
There have been many moments between us lately. They occur at the most random times, just when we park to go inside a club, when we are sitting in the movie theatre, or while we're reading the paper at the coffee shop. It's just like his horoscope said.
HE's a Capricorn. I remember when we first got together I was learning about him. His horoscope is one that is very practical, sometimes to a fault. And out of nowhere, it said, when you least expect it, HE will do something romantic, or surprise you with something that is completely unexpected. Well it's true.
Learning to let go of fear, and insecurity and control, in a relationship is the most difficult task I've taken on. But somehow, the love I feel for him, the honest to god desire to be with this man, helps me overcome all the times I feel that the negatives are too much for me.
Last night HE leaned over, after a bit of bantering about other women, and said, "I don't do it as something against you, I love you." With that, HE kissed my head and we went back to the movie. We are learning to come together through our differences and the dust is finally beginning to settle after the storm.
Back to my wonderful weekend with him.
HE's a Capricorn. I remember when we first got together I was learning about him. His horoscope is one that is very practical, sometimes to a fault. And out of nowhere, it said, when you least expect it, HE will do something romantic, or surprise you with something that is completely unexpected. Well it's true.
Learning to let go of fear, and insecurity and control, in a relationship is the most difficult task I've taken on. But somehow, the love I feel for him, the honest to god desire to be with this man, helps me overcome all the times I feel that the negatives are too much for me.
Last night HE leaned over, after a bit of bantering about other women, and said, "I don't do it as something against you, I love you." With that, HE kissed my head and we went back to the movie. We are learning to come together through our differences and the dust is finally beginning to settle after the storm.
Back to my wonderful weekend with him.
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